My book has been 'out there' a week now, with the official release date being last Tuesday. If you missed it, I obviously wasn't screaming loud enough.
I wasn't exactly sure what to expect. Due to a few snafoos along the way I didn't actually receive any books until Wednesday.
And then it hit me.
I really did do this. I got a book published.
I am a published author.
So now what?
Well, there has been a LOT of celebrating around here the past few days. We had a private launch party here at the house with good friends and family, in 60's style. It was a blast!! I put pics up on my Facebook page if you're interested!
I'm furiously trying to get my book into as many hands as I can, get people talking about it, keep the momentum going, organize a local book signing, figure out how many copies to bring in for that and...I realized I'm stressing. I sure know how to suck the joy out of things PDQ, don't I?
I blame my severe panic attacks on Amazon.
You see, once they're carrying your book, they have this awful little thing called Amazon Bestsellers ranking. Your book gets ranked among the 8 million other books that Amazon carries.
Yeah, if this is news to you, it was to me too. I never paid attention to that stuff.
But now...it's like a sickness. And each time the numbers go higher, I freak a little. Like, people aren't buying my book, they don't even know about it, it sucks, they hate it...get the idea?
I need help, folks, I'm really mental. See the thing is, I actually got as high as 21,000. Which, out of 8 million, was pretty good. But now we're sitting somewhere in the 200 thousand range.
And really, I have no idea what those numbers mean anyway! I probably won't get a real idea of how many books are selling until that first royalty check.
The fact that I have nine five star reviews so far, within the first week of release, should be enough for me. What am I worrying about a bunch of stupid numbers for anyway?
It's not a competition. Right?
I'm telling you, THIS is a reality check. Time to sit back and remind myself why I do this.
Is it to sell a million copies and get rich? Because if it is, bring on the strait-jacket, I'm clearly delusional. Sure I'd love the book to do well, but I'm just happy to hear that people are enjoying it. I love getting comments like, "I can't put this down!" It makes me smile to know that people are relating to my characters and being touched by their story.
So for me, it's not a competition. I'm going to stop checking the numbers, but I'm not going to stop talking about my book, and I'm going to continue to ask YOU to talk about it too - but not because I want it to hit the top 100. I want it to hit hearts. I know it can. It already has.
So if you've read, plan to read or are reading Yesterday's Tomorrow, spread the word. Write a review. Talk about it to your friends. If you didn't like it, talk to me about it. :0)
And remind me about this post in another week when I have another panic attack!