Monday, March 28, 2011
Two Weeks In...
I love reading blogs by newly published authors. I would read each word, feel their excitement and long for the day when I would share that experience. The day has come, and here I am, two weeks into the release of my first novel. People have asked how it feels.
I'm not completely sure, to be honest. If I had to sum it all up in a few words, I might choose these:
Elation. Exhaustion. Obsession. Fear.
Elation - Yay, I finally did it! My book is out there, people are reading it! This is an amazing feeling in and of itself. I am enjoying it, despite what the voices inside my head tell me!!
Exhaustion - I really want to make sure EVERYONE AND ALL THEIR COUSINS know about my book!! This means a lot of time spent visiting blogs, answering interview questions and joining sites that may help promote my book. And all the while wondering how to keep up with it all AND keep writing. But I spent many long, hard years to get to this point. I want to make sure it does well. This is very time consuming. Not to mention the fact that I'm spending a lot of money on promotional materials and getting the books to Bermuda. That's exhausting to think about, and it has proven to be a frustrating process!
Obsession - Sadly, having a new book out there is very much like having a new baby. You want to go and check up on it every five minutes to make sure its still breathing. I'm not sure I know how to NOT do this yet. It's just far too much of a temptation for me to click on that Amazon button and check it out. Sometimes this is a good thing. Today I discovered a brand new review from a random reader! It was a good review too, so I'm glad I clicked the button!
Fear - Yes, there is a lot of fear involved in this process. Thankfully, even though we're in early days yet, my book seems to be doing well, regardless of the numbers on the Amazon rankings!! But for me, there's the fear that my next book won't live up to the first. How do I do this all over again? Will I even be able to? My next book is written, complete and I'm in the final polishing stages. But I'm dragging my feet in sending it to my editor because I'm afraid it just won't measure up. No, sorry, it's not a sequel to Yesterday's Tomorrow - but that may be a possibility if I get a few seconds to actually think clearly...
I'm not sure if I'm just making far too big a deal out of the feelings I'm experiencing, but I've never done this before. So, first time for everything, right?
What about you? Have you been in my shoes yet? How did you or are you coping with it all? And if you're not there yet, how do you envision this part of the journey will look for you?