In light of the feedback I've gotten through the Genesis contest, and other sources, I'm deep into revisions on Yesterday's Tomorrow. I'm also still way over my desired word count for this manuscript, so I'm hoping the pruning will help.
Here's what I've learned about myself through this process.
I'm too sensitive.
I take myself too seriously.
I don't like change.
I automatically connect criticism with rejection.
There's more, but that's painful enough.
I know I need to develop a thick skin to be a writer. I've been told this since day one, and it's been years.
What do they want - bullet proof armor? I'm all out. Anyone know where I can get another suit?
The thing I keep telling myself, over and over again, just 'cause I'm a little slow, is that this all for IMPROVEMENT.
I have a calling, and yes, I do believe that, or I wouldn't be doing it - and I need to be sure the work I'm putting out there is the best it can be.
If it isn't, I'm not going to make it.
The sad fact is, many, many writers never get published.
I'm determined not to be one of them.
So, if God wills, I continue, I prune, wince and shudder with each change made. Yet when it's done, I know it will all be worth it.
Yet another day in the life of a writer.
Pass the cappuccino.