Normally at this time of year, I'd be getting ready to head away to attend the American Christian Fiction Writers Conference. I have done this three years in a row now.
This year I am staying home.
Various reasons drew me to this tough decision, and as the excitement mounts among my friends who are attending, I admit to be a wee bit sad. Okay, even annoyed. However, I think I'm doing the right thing by staying home. I know that attending a conference is pretty important for a writer, and it would have been great to go meet with some editors, hang out with my agent again, and catch up with old friends. Donald Maas is teaching and Debbie Macomber is the keynote speaker. What a year to miss, huh?!
But I'm trusting that this is the right thing for me at this time in my life.
Things have been just uber nuts for us this past year. We're still grappling with some stuff, and just when you take a moment to relax, another tidal wave rolls in, or so it seems.
So taking a few days for myself is just not a good idea right now. I know that.
But I still feel like I'm missing out, and I guess there isn't anything I can do about that.
So what do you do when you feel like you're missing something important? How do you look on the bright side and relax in the knowledge that the decision you made is the right one?
I'm terrible for second guessing myself. And I don't trust my own decisions. Guess that's why I really need God!
Anyway, all that to say boo hoo and cry in my soup a bit. I'll be thinking of all of you who will be at the conference. Please pop me an email if you get a chance to let me know how things are going, and take lots of pictures!!
I'll see you next year!